thursday

I have recently discovered that days, or dates mean little to me inspite of the countdown to when I have to leave my home again (today its not Thursday, August 4-its 2 more days). 2 more days left here, at my home, in my bed, in a place where life just seems to be and things just fit and fall into place... But I must go, and I am excited about it-only, this new place is away from the family and friends I have worked so hard to develop a good relationship with, and I just don't know what to expect. My next little journey is almost completely unknown to me, I mean I know the destination and I love it there, I just don't know the details, and details are important to me. I don't know the people either-oh I know I will get to know them-but in my world lately I haven't stayed in one place for very long at a time (actually I have been back in BC for over 11 months and this is the longest time I have spent in one place in over 6 years) so jumping from place to place just isn't what I once thought it would be. So, I hope people will bear with me as I go to a new place and as I leave this place, as I put one adventure on hold and participate in another, as I leave friends I love and value, and meet new ones-I really wish i could have the best of both worlds and that distances wouldn't make a difference in friendships

ahh the never ending hope for a perfect world. one day... one day...

saturday in the sunshine

well, I finally managed to pull myself inside, hard as it was to leave the summer weather we are having... Lately I have been trying to be more disciplined in my life, as in exercising more (which involves me scheduling it in-which might be the hardest part), taking the time to be quiet and think and take in life, processing all that has been going on in my life and the lives of those I love, leaving a couple minutes earlier than usual so I don't end up mad at other drivers, and lots of other stuff... so far so good, being a little more disciplined has given me more time to just enjoy things and not think about all the things I need to do or should be doing.
Beyond that, there are lots of other things going on in my little heart, things I am thankful for, nervous about, absolutely excited about and saddly, some things I don't care enough about...